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“But time … how time first grounds us and then confounds us. We thought we were being mature when we were only being safe. We imagined we were being responsible but were only being cowardly. What we called realism turned out to be a way of avoiding things rather than facing them. Time … give us enough time and our best-supported decisions will seem wobbly, our certainties...

Feb 16th

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Jan 23rd

One day I'll make it big...

… just like Kanye West.

Jan 19th

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Jan 1st

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Dec 28th

Watch

CONTENT: “Single, in my thirties, successful man, not looking for anybody.” Original title: Sputnik (Un pahar de vin si nimic mai mult) Year of production: 2010 Shooting format: HD Director: Cristina Grosan Scriptwriter: Cristina Grosan D.O.P: Nyoszoli Akos Editor: Cristina Grosan Music: Dan Georgescu Sound: Cristian Lucaciu, Matei Blaj Producer: Department of Cinematography...

Dec 2nd

Damn.

http://www.spin.com/articles/zooey-deschanel-and-ben-gibbard-split?obref=obinsite Just like any other good thing in my life, this did not last.

Dec 1st

Nov 26th

Teaching practice

Famously placed at “Emil Racoviță” National College, I felt right at home. Very smart kids with who I worked wonderfully. First class: 10th A. Something about Gardner’s theory of multiple intelligences. Sweet. Except… the Listening exercise went bad cause the course book was not in sync with the CD. Second class: 7th A. A lesson about shopping and stores. We bonded, sure....

Nov 23rd

11.11.2011

Dear friend, (part II) Last night I dreamed about you once more. The same reoccurring theme: if God would have resurrected you somehow, right now, I would have promised not to tell anyone that I secretly been praying and wishing for this and that I would have done my best to keep you and your loved ones happy even if that meant going to live on the other side of the planet. How motherly and...

Nov 12th

Nov 10th

Troubled

Oh dear, What a bad moment to have to study Virigina Woolf. I have been hospitalised last week. Such a rush. I feel fine but what I care for mostly, my mind, it slips. It drips, it flashes, it sings. Romanian hospitals have a way of making you feel like you’re going slowly insane. I am on Prednisone and lots of it. The trips, the scare, the ride, the uncertainty? I don’t know. ...

Nov 2nd

Yet another dream.

A week from today was the religious service for the commemoration of your passing beyond, loved one. Two days ago was the anniversary of your death. It’s been three years. Three strange, sticky, confusing, hazy, lazy, hectic, perverse, controversial years. So many have changed and I hate it. Not to mention that this year we were so few present at your grave. Your mother, sweet as...

Oct 23rd

Oct 19th

New Death Cab For Cutie Album

Codes and Keys. I would like to say that Ben Gibbard’s marriage with Zooey Dechannel was the best thing that could ever happen. And I can hear it in his songs that he’s really happy. I’m really sorry that I can’t empathize at this point in my life.

Aug 15th

Update on that epiphany

(23:11:33) Eric: so tell me about this selfishness+lying=man (23:11:37) Eric: epiphany of yours (23:13:09) Dumpling: I get so happy when I hear that you’ve been reading my blog (23:13:11) Dumpling: well (23:13:24) Eric: of course i do (23:13:51) Dumpling: I’ve come to learn that (23:14:01) Dumpling: no matter how hard I try to do a favour to someone (23:14:18) Dumpling: I get some...

Aug 11th

Selfishness+Lying=Man

I’ll get back to you on this one. It’s Sunday, July 17th 4:31. My parents will be here in almost three hours. I just had an epiphany, hope I remember it when I wake up.

Jul 16th

"Bordando el Manto Terrestre" by Remedios Varo →

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Apr 27th

Happy Easter 2011!

I just have to write this down before I forget it! I just woke up from yet another strange dream worth putting into a film! So it went that I was in a classroom (I think it was a course classroom and I had the awkward feeling that it is some sort of maths course). My colleagues were about 20 in number but the room could have sustained much more. The right side of the classroom was entirely made...

Apr 24th

It's been too long, sir!

This is probably just a sample of all the things that have been happening these past four months in which I have yet to write a single thing. This faculty is still like a prison to me. Professors are like the most stiff, bored and frustrated people I have ever seen in my life. I don’t blame them, the pay is shit. A very dear friend of mine said something that I find shockingly true:...

Apr 10th

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Dec 28th

Christmas 2010

… has passed wonderfully. :) All I can say is that I still need to meed up with my high school headmistress, and other people that I care about, but for now I want to thank Dragoș and Cristina G for making my Christmas brighter by giving me the gift of gifts: books! On the 23rd of Dec. I went caroling with the youngsters from Church to our priest’s house and I had the most amazing...

Dec 28th

Precious!

“An intense blah feeling” would be a suiting phrase to describe the phenomenon of being a freshman. A sophomore, you ask? A completely different version of the story. I mentioned in an earlier post that dorm life is fantastic. Well, it still is! Even more so, I’ve come to meet some incredible people. Each and every person I’ve met here, actually, there (cause now...

Dec 16th

1:30 AM crisis

Dear friend, Where are you? Ever since you’ve left things have been so terribly quiet. I’ve messed up. Pretty badly this time and I can’t fix it by apologizing, like I usually do… I really need you right now and I hope you’re reading this cause you were the only person that could understand my innermost feelings just by looking me in the eye. I don’t want...

Dec 13th

Just a quickie!

Alright… a quick update as the post title indicates: - I got into the second year. - I got a scholarship. - I got a place in a dorm. - I love living in this dorm. - I love my three room mates. - Did I say I love living in a dorm? - School is much more easier when you’re a sophomore - Dragoș is coming to visit next week! - I found a cozy place to stay and read before going...

Nov 24th

A single woman

Waking up begins with saying ‘am’ and ‘now’. For the past twenty-five months waking up has actually hurt. Cold realization that I’m still here sets in. I was never terribly fond of waking up. I was never the one to greet the day with a smile on my face like he was. I wanted to punch him sometimes in the morning, he was so happy. I used to tell him that only fools...

Nov 20th

Sep 10th

Panic! (Not At The Disco! unfortunately...)

Ok. This is it. I have a powerful apocalyptic feeling right now. I should be rereading my Japanese course but that’s what I’ve been doing for about 20 hours straight, and now I simply can’t take it any more… I utterly feel the walls closing in on me and I’m literally starting to see spots before my eyes. I this this really is IT! Well, no, not really, if I...

Sep 1st

Aug 22nd

Watch

My latest cinematic obsession… This gay couple really made me think things more thoroughly concerning homosexuality. I still think such a relationship is utopic and dysfunctional but there’s something so beautiful and sad about this couple. Hmmm…

Aug 14th

Just a random though

I should stop listening to AIR on summery nights like this. Seriously, it’s not helpful nor healthy. Their songs remind me how much I hate sunrises. Sunrises are absolutely evil. I remember my first one so well, like it happened yesterday: it was one of my cousin’s wedding and I was a 5th grader. The scenery was superb, a big lake near the mountains and lots of small, cozy cabins. I...

Aug 1st

"Silent heartache July to June" ?

So it all started in the exam session. Yay… Prosperous period, I know. This passed month has been unreal. No, really. It’s been “virtual”. As in, I’m spending an average of six hours a day, on the Internet. Maybe a more appropriate word would be “fantasti.cc”. Yes, I think so. It’s been “fantasti.cc”. Someone finally made me feel...

Jul 18th

Jun 19th

Oh dear...

My, my, my… Everything is so hot these days. Concreate, topics, people everything. Everywhere I look I see Summer. This Summer I’m getting a South American or Hispanic vibe. Dunno why. I just do. Could it be because I’m listening to Devendra Banhart right now? Hmmmm. Two days ago me and Cristina went window shopphing (ah ‘tis good to be an impoverished student) and we...

Jun 10th

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Ana Asch’s Academic Exercise! :) “This was my first AfterEffects animation. We were supposed to do just a 30sec random animation to try out everything we learned at the end of the course, but I ended up doing a 3min animation inspired by Regina Spektor’s “Loveology”. Still have to properly animate some parts, since the time available was meant for a 30sec...

Jun 4th

Check out Sway, for girls who love pretty things! →

Via Nausica, such a charming lady. :)

May 30th

Cybersex

Come on. Admit it. At least once you were tempted to try it. Or at least I was. Sure it’s wrong in every way imaginable. It involves lying, betraying someone to whom you are already committed, pretending you are someone who you are not, eventually liking it. While you are liking it, your blood starts rushing and eventually you masturbate, which is again, the crime of the century. Stupid,...

May 25th

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Have a sip of this, now, at the dawn of Summer.

May 16th

Spontaneity

Yesterday I got a phone call from home. Nothing unusual there. But when father said he is obliged to take a journey to the eternal city, for business purposes, business which will be ended in three month’s time, I had to act. So I did. I took the express train at 7.13 and by 12.00 I was home. Cluj has it’s charm, but Arad, my dearest, you are the city of my soul, chamber of my most...

May 8th

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